today shall update in english.. :D
joanne be strong and we will
always be there for you..
remember to look for us.. :D

funeral is not a sad thing
as i thought initially..
it was just very peaceful there..

FINA swimming champs..
OMG damn cool..
SO MANY HOT SWIMMERS!!
and best part of it..
A NEW WORLD RECORD 100M
backstroke with a time of 56.51 sec
by Natalie CoughlinDAMN PRO~!! OMG~!
crowned world fastest woman swimmer.. :D

today went malaysia with parents
saw the hospital and ward
is totally different from singapore
saw my grandmother lying on the bed
cant talk, can only move abit
cuz of stroke only left side can move
smallest uncle cried
mama cried
eldest uncle cried
i cried
daddy cried

I WISH THAT MY GRANMOTHER WILL BE FINE!!!

okyay time to reply some tags..

to jaime:

jaime, i also hope to
ignore my classmates and just get A
is very difficult
and now my grades affected cuz of my
teammates.. then how?
i very sian.. my A like equals
to nothing.. i really tink
i am wasting time in my class
nvr learn anything..
teachers also sian sian.. faintzz

to liting:

as i said above
it is difficult put myself
above everybody else in rp
cuz everything is grp work
now my grades also affected
cuz of this.. damn sian
from now on i don think i will
help them le.. but like tat
i also like putting myself
at the edge.. how???? haizz

to cy:

if i am self centred..
i will still be affected
in many ways..
haiz........

to qp:

thanks.. haha..
i will.. you too :D

to xing:

you ar.. make me so sad..
known you since sec 1
then don wan to send me the sms
write alr save as draft..
duh.. faintz...
but anyway..
take care.. :D

hahah.. really ar..
i dont know my post so influencial
recently damn emo..
damn sian..
damn sad..
hope i can recover soon bah..... :D

我发现
我越想拥有的，
往往都会从我身边
溜走。。。
为什么一切不能停留
一定要有变化呢？

敷衍
是欺骗的一种
那也是很伤的痛
知道真相后
心就被敲碎了
很难再拼凑在一起了

当一切都变了的时候
真的什么都挽回不了吗？

刚刚得知朋友的
妈妈过世的消息
我一时也不知道
该做什么好
只传了封简讯
希望她能看开一点
虽然说得比做得容易
但我希望这是我身为朋友
给你的一点小小的安慰
因为我知道我不能为你做些什么

如果事情发生在我身上
我一定我能释怀
所以我们一定要珍惜
身边所有的人、事、物
不然等到事情发生后
就来不及了
一定会终生遗憾

我非常的失望
今早我哭了
这是我压抑了
很久的情绪
应该是时候
发泄出来了

我也不知道
是在生自己
还是别人的气

突然这一切都不值得
没有人了解
只是一味的误解，
责怪我所做的
全都是多余无畏的
只会被人当成
多管闲事的三八婆

我只是想帮她
却被说成这样
我的心真的碎了
原来朋友是这样当的

我也发现
越坚强的人的内心
其实非常的脆弱
强颜欢笑只是
他们的伪装
只为了不让身旁
的人担心

过去的几个月
甚至现在
我都觉得
我非常不开心

理由我略知一二
原因我却似懂非懂

也许我以前
都不敢去面对
其实我所拥有的一切
都是幻影
我在朋友之间
是那么不被重视
那么容易的被取代

其实什么是快乐？
为什么我觉得快乐
可欲不可求?
久违的快乐
你到底去了哪里？

以前真正快乐的我
已经飞到无影无踪了
我很想很想
找回那个我
可以吗。。。

很多人都跟我说
不要管别人
做好自己的本分就好了
我也常常和朋友们说
但是能真得这么做吗？
应该很难一个人
独领天下
人真地能不用朋友吗？

我不知道
我到底想表达什么
嗨。。。

now is 1203..
just had a sian, nearly cried day..
sian cuz class so like so damn noisy
cant even concentrade well
nearly cried cuz too agitated
till i wan to kill people

BUT now i kan kai already..
no need to get agitated
because of something wierd..
thx to all the people
who talked me out today!!
EFFORTS DEEPLY APPRECIATED!!

mon didnt go for culture
cuz of heavy rain..
LOL
but i really dont want to
walk to station with lappy
and wet like.....
wanted to go in second meeting
but woke up late..

today enterprise
the things we presented
like totally out and i the LEADER
didnt noticed
only last min then know
but no time to do..
damn sian..

attended ce talk on
starting business
quite interesting

and and and
TODAY I SAT IN A MECEDES!!!!
THX JAIME!!
it's my second time sitting in a mecedes!!
damn shiok la..
my dream car HAHAHAHA

on Sun sat in a jaguar
and today sat in mecedes..
OMGOMG HIGH DAOOOOO!!!

regrets cannot be erased
consequences cannot be reversed

i miss the happy times...

okay back for updates..

bad news!!

i have been going through
very boring days
in school and after school..
everyday go home straight

now going to school
is a chore for me
there is little motivation
to make me want to go school
the urge to go school
is gone
can and will i find it back?
please....

i really feel so no life..
i really dont like what i am having now

i just happen to read someone's blog
saying that i am the one who dont wan to care
hey come on.. when i see your i said hi
the person beside you replied me
you just treat me invisible just walk off
who the hell are you to pin point me now
if i dont wan to care
i wont even bother to say hi okay

as i have said, the things i want to say
i already said in my reply
whatever i have mentioned are the fact
those which i chose not to say
was because i promised them not to mention anything
and since it's not meant for you to know then
get over it..
THISSS IS WHAT I LEARNT from you and mahendran
if they want to tell you
they will.. get it?
stop saying is all my fault

i did not throw
everything back to you..
at least i tried to solve it first
since i dont see efforts
even when i started to solve
why shld i bother anymore?
dont expect me to do everyting okay
friendship is not ONE SIDED

okay enough of the bad stuffs..
now for some good news~!!

Firstly i received a very encouraging
comment from my culture faci..

You were very humble as you gave
opinions on the presentations of
other teams and when you gave
your own opinions.
In short, you displayed
good social skills.


actually i am really shocked
to receive this..
but i wan to say a big
thank you to w45n ppl
for making me understand
this point and i reflected
and now it shows that
i did learn from it :D

i am helping out in ts
sea games flag presentation's
preparation.. SO COOL
i get to learn how events
are managed.. which is beneficial
to me.. it's so exciting!!! :P

now on my way to sch.
sure late for second meeting..

ytd kenna 'scolded' by miss H
i tink for the second time
due to friends issue
haha.. maybe i really will DIE
if i don have friends bah..
she say friends come and go
so dont really need to pay attention to them
cuz my job in rp is to study..

and i think class culture is really
very important
now i scared that i am being influenced
by my classmates
i hope that my class culture can change or
at the least dont let me work with those
not so hardworking ones
cuz i really want to do well

miss H remind me that i SHLD not be influenced
and just do my own work and present my own
stuffs if working with not so hardworking ppl
but in this way i think ppl will
think that i am very arrogant
hai.. so sian.. but
i think i can do it :D

i really pondered over the friendship thingy
and i realised that having few very very
good friends are beter than alot of Acquaintances
who dont even care for my existance..

难道有瑕疵的友谊
就不能修补的吗？
我想挽回的心
就那么不被重视吗？

blogging from workplace..
very very very bored..
i am gg to quit at the end of mth
cuz ytd my sup told me that my sales
are bad, unless i work hard if not they will sack me
so i will sack them before they do

and then i need to pay them 70 bucks
cuz i sold a brazil bikini at half price
i really didnt know that brand was supposedly
to be sold separately - top and bottom
hai.. it was my fault for not reading the notes carefully..
so................. no choice..

I AM GOING TO REPAIR MY PHONE AT THE END OF THE MTH
finally my 6280 is coming alive.. AGAIN :D

wao.. it's so fast..
this is my 206th post..
and i have blogged for 1 year and 7 mths..
haha.. find one day i shall look through
my previous posts to recall what happpened..

today woke up
and received a sms from my sup
sayng that my shift was being changed to 3
cuz key wasnt with her

had breakfast with parents
bought ICE CREAM!!
used comp and slept for one hour

woke up sis said gg to view house
so i told my sup i gg work at 5
she agreed

viewed 4 houses at jurong west
the last one realy good
flooring alr done and
is quite clean and neat
top storey.. 8th floor
just directly behind hongkah cc
so cool man
inside the cc got mac
wao.. :D

dad quarrelled with sis over house matters
damn sad
i want to move now please..

ytd had the most boring lesson ever..
my team mates.. omg.. faint..
keep playing and playing..
i cant be bothered..
so i did my own work..

PLEASE CHANGE MY GROUP!!!

lesson ended at ard 315
made new fren ezanne :D

met up with shirin for a short chat
while she highlight her hair

i was rushing to airport
for the welcome back
so touching man
nearly cried

had a nice chat with my in charge
and friends
we are gg thailand together~!! :D
had a ride home in 'daddy's caar

counting down.........

w45n is already history..
i dont think i should hang on it already..
now i really give up on some of the friendships that we had..
is not worth making myself so sad
because of it..
since your want to treat me this way..
so i will too..
no need to say hi when your dont want to
because is just so FAKE
cuz i wont.. from now on

PS:

FRIENDS SHOULD NOT BE THE ONES
HURTING YOU....
IF THEY ARE,
STAY AWaY FROM THEM
BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS

EVEN THE PERSON
YoU TRUST THE MOST
WILL BETRAY YOU
IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER
SO....
BEWARE

hey people~!!
GOOD GOOD GOOD NEWS~~~!!
i am going to thailand in sec..
for 24th sea games..
OMGOMGOMGOM~!!
this will be the 2nd time i am gg for sea gamees..
HAHAHA :D
damn happy man~!!
dont know how many days i gg..
fuss also gg..
hope we can go the same
number of days.. ~!!!

COUNTING DOWN~!!

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had cognitive today..
quite boring during first and second breaks..
quite confusing in the first and second meetings..
doing on paradox..
i learnt smt..

ALL is POSSIBLE
the IMPOSSIBLE too

i used my way to explain
and i totally agree and understand

today no ppt..
did smt different
members are to explain
meaning of paradox to other teams
quite messy and noisy
but it's fun
so not stressed

lesson ended at 330
left for station with
yeo zhi ting & zheng mi xue
had my favorite ramily!!
HAHAHAHA :P

tml is cognitive ut
all the best ppl~!! :D

OMG~!! i think i shld go bang wall..
how can i forget to mention something so important?

on sat i finally got to meet up
with my secondary school fren CINDY~!!
she just came back to singapore to study interior design
at raffles design school...
wa piang.. she didnt changed..
still as pretty~!!
i think ard 3 years nvr seen her
cuz she went back indonesia
in sec 2..
GIRL i MISSED U LOTS~!
now that she is back we can meet up often already..
FOR 3 YEARS~!! hahaha :P

yeap okay back for some up datees..

okay firstly i want to say..
gc ar.. i know u will read my blog..
so i reply u here..
i am sorry for last wk..
didnt stayed with u after school..

maybe you may not treat me as someone
who can spill your troubles to,
but nvm when remember when u need help
i will always be there okay?
funny la you..
everyday chatted with me still say no one to chat..
but ar.. cuz i dont wan walk alone to station ma..
so i chose to leave with my classmates..
damn sorry la.. i will try this wk okay?

now is 1242 am and i am still online..
hahaha die.. so tired.. but wan to finish some things first..
before hitting the sacks...

fri i think had a nice chat with rozi..
sweets i miss u lots lots~~!
looking forward to the lunch date next wk!! :D

sat and sun's sales good man..
so scary.. damn alot of ppl..
i still don know if i wan to stay on this job anot.. ahah
today first time working at bugis..
erm.. dont really like.. cuz very messy..
i still prefer suntec.........

today finally bought my sweater..
been shopping lately..
damn happy.. :D

today during lunch..
had a great chat with my classmates.. girls~!
had lots of plans gg on..
HAHAH been laughing the whole day cuz of them..
eh my laughing gang in E35C~!!
i love ur lots lots~!!

now need to read up on poa stuffs..
cuz tml enterprise seems to need it..
dont wanna bring the bk ..
so i better note down the stuffs..

tml shld be another hard work day~!! :D

wawawa..
i just came back from a shopping spreeee!!
bought new clothes..
damn haapppyyy... :D

today went for phychology talk..
hahaha..
fell asleep.. LOL
so paiseh..
but shiok man..
got aircon.. and comfortable chairs..

then went to see xiao hua xiao cao..
our sch de contestants....
errrrrrr...
judge yourselves bah.. HAHAHA

Had a great train journey with MICHELLE ZHENG!!!
next time still wan go with you... or ZHITING~!!
HAHAHHA :P

Oh ya my dearest ROZI swweettss..
i cant access your blog le..
why you 'blocked' me....? :(
sobz sobz

now blogging from train.. ahaha.. cool la use vodaphone.. :D

these few days was fine..
ytd didnt go sch cuz i overslept..
woke up at 915.. lol la
first time damn zai..
maybe just too tired le..

on tues went for smoking talk..
so damn embarrassed..
but luckily not many ppl went..
was asked to go stage to 'act'
but i raelly don know wat to do
and just kept on laughing and laughing and laughing..
from the moment i went up till the moment i came down..
LOL watever stuffs i am supposed to do
all so awkward one.. ewwwwww.. LOL

tml last day of week.. :D

hahahah..
forgot to mention something..
i think my stm is getting serious and serious each day..
my memory is failing me i guess...
today a girl waved at me at the station..
i find her very very familiar
but just cant remember who is she..
have been thinking for the whole day..
and on my way to work..
it just strike me that she is gc's classmate..
HAHAHAHA wa piang faint right..

Hope that as my stm gets serious..
i can forget abt all the unhappiness previously..

TODAY had a GREAT laughing day in class..
VERY long nvr laughed so much already..
ALL THANKS TO MY E35C classmates..
THANKS BUDDS~!! :D

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haha.. blogging from workplace..
no customers so i decide to do my rj..

1 more hours to go..
die comp low bad liao..
cant use already...
damn it..
no extra switch for me to charge....

EEEEEEW!!

using vodaphone..
is a damn cool thing...
AHAHA
got to go...
bb people :P

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