Tuesday, August 07, 2007
alot of saddening stuffs happened..... another time where things turned out of hand again.. actually the problem is always there.. but i chose to keep quiet.. since no one will ever care..
i dont know why things will happen at this time when we are left with so little time? why cant they treasure the time we have left? and after so many months as classmates, why cant we stick to just the basic thing that WE ARE CLASSMATES? even if there are disputes in between, no need to really treat the people as invisible right? we are classmates afterall, and only 2 weeks are left.. cant we really have the happy time as before so that good memories can be left behind after we split?
i tried hard to hold back my tears all these while.. because i made a pact to myself that i will never cry in front of my classmates ever again.. but i think i am really going to let everything out real soon.. because i really cannot take it liao.. i hope i feel better..
honestly speaking your also didnt not really bother to know what kind of person i am from what i can feel..
i really feel hurt because i know that after so long, i still cant get into the clique.. even if i do, also half leg in half leg out.. i have been thinking all these while, what causes this to happen between me and your.. and i kind of know the reason why.. and that is that the time i joined the clique is just not right.. when i joined your, the bond between your is already that strong.. nothing can break that.. i can only blame that initially when we started class, we did not have much chance to work together and to bond in the process.. maybe from the start i should not have even tried to join your.. i dont ever think that they will notice it anyway.. and wont know that actually alot of things went through my mind but i cant say say or show it.. because i still want to hang out with your.. i still wanna try.. initially thought that things may change with time.. but i was wrong.. cuz afterall i am NOT in the clique.. i am just a passerby in their lives.. i dont think they will even really remember me as a friend after we split.. i tried all these while but there is no positive results.. i tried my best but there are just things where your did i really cant do it.. but that does not mean that i am anti social or what.. it is just my culture and principle ma.. but i guess your will not think that way.. somemore now things turned to this stage liao.. i really have not much to say.. i just hope that these 2 weeks can pass fast.. and start everything new in a new environment..
but really.. i treasure your as my friends.. the happy and sad times we had together will always be with me no matter where i go.. i don know if your will.. but it REALLY hurts me so to see that we become like tat at the last moments of us being W45N..
as for another issue.. i really didnt know that things will turn out this way.. we became so distant.. like strangers more than anything else.. i really hope that the thing didnt bother you much because i am just asking for assurance.. now that i know the situation, i really hope we can still be like before.. because i still treasure you as a very very good friend too.. i dont want to strain on our friendship due to this matter... i dont know if you will ever know this.. but if by chance you see this, i hope things will change for the better... :D
i dont know why things will happen at this time when we are left with so little time? why cant they treasure the time we have left? and after so many months as classmates, why cant we stick to just the basic thing that WE ARE CLASSMATES? even if there are disputes in between, no need to really treat the people as invisible right? we are classmates afterall, and only 2 weeks are left.. cant we really have the happy time as before so that good memories can be left behind after we split?
i tried hard to hold back my tears all these while.. because i made a pact to myself that i will never cry in front of my classmates ever again.. but i think i am really going to let everything out real soon.. because i really cannot take it liao.. i hope i feel better..
honestly speaking your also didnt not really bother to know what kind of person i am from what i can feel..
i really feel hurt because i know that after so long, i still cant get into the clique.. even if i do, also half leg in half leg out.. i have been thinking all these while, what causes this to happen between me and your.. and i kind of know the reason why.. and that is that the time i joined the clique is just not right.. when i joined your, the bond between your is already that strong.. nothing can break that.. i can only blame that initially when we started class, we did not have much chance to work together and to bond in the process.. maybe from the start i should not have even tried to join your.. i dont ever think that they will notice it anyway.. and wont know that actually alot of things went through my mind but i cant say say or show it.. because i still want to hang out with your.. i still wanna try.. initially thought that things may change with time.. but i was wrong.. cuz afterall i am NOT in the clique.. i am just a passerby in their lives.. i dont think they will even really remember me as a friend after we split.. i tried all these while but there is no positive results.. i tried my best but there are just things where your did i really cant do it.. but that does not mean that i am anti social or what.. it is just my culture and principle ma.. but i guess your will not think that way.. somemore now things turned to this stage liao.. i really have not much to say.. i just hope that these 2 weeks can pass fast.. and start everything new in a new environment..
but really.. i treasure your as my friends.. the happy and sad times we had together will always be with me no matter where i go.. i don know if your will.. but it REALLY hurts me so to see that we become like tat at the last moments of us being W45N..
as for another issue.. i really didnt know that things will turn out this way.. we became so distant.. like strangers more than anything else.. i really hope that the thing didnt bother you much because i am just asking for assurance.. now that i know the situation, i really hope we can still be like before.. because i still treasure you as a very very good friend too.. i dont want to strain on our friendship due to this matter... i dont know if you will ever know this.. but if by chance you see this, i hope things will change for the better... :D
tastes of life @ 1:58 PM.
