i am gg to change my style of blogging.. to short short posts.. i find myself too long winded like ah ma.. cannot cannot.. :D

had a good dinner ytd with ts and sailor roy..
i won a dinner with him and peggy went with me..
nice person but awkward la wa piang keep saboing me and him.. HAHA
ate ding tai feng.. wao niCE!

tonight eating ding tai feng again..
but is with waterpolo guys.. WOOHOO~!! HOT!!
ytd peggy went with me.. today i go with peggy.. LOL

sat went to carefour to buy my FBT shorts.. haha damn happy.. lol.. cuz my nike sports shorts is gone~!! dont knw where is it now.. maybe i left it in kl.. HAHA~!! now the FBT shorts got offer man.. 8.70 now.. usual price is 10.90..

sun the long awaited half army marathon.. haha.. woke up late.. at 6.30 like tat.. when i supposedly to meet them at 7.. omG~!! luckily i live quite near to city hall.. only needs like 15 mins to reach.. then i went wrong place.. shld be at raffles city startbucks.. i went suntec starbucks.. LOL

the few of us started the race at 840 where others started at 8 and some already finished by the time we started.. i was the last of the last.. i thnk i am too weak liao.. head spinning man.. kns.. got army and police car behind me in case we have anyting.. LOL

in the end we gave up at like 5km or 5++ km.. we really cannot take it alr.. wan to vomit head spinning etcetc.. and it seems tat the thing is never ending.. LOL so we walked in to suntec to floating platform there to rest and help out at the booth.. after tat went home rested awhile bathed had lunch went out with sis to ikea.. LOL after tat went karaokay.. wa shiok man.. so long nvr sing liao.. i wanna go again~!! :D


AND NOW~!! my whole body is aching man.. haha how can it be? i last week then played badminton and muscle ached before le.. i really dontknow what is wit my body.. HAAH~!!

recently sien sent me this song.. i think the lyrics really resembles what i am experiencing now.. :D

心　该怎么学会去适应　- how shld the heart learn to adapt
那些没你的安静 - those quiet moments without you
我　也曾小心的收起所有回忆 - i will cautiously hide the memories
却总是忍不住不断的翻起 - but it just appears unknowingly



my best-est best friend for life :D

yesterday was the last day of school.. had computing.. damn stressed cuz doing vb.. lol.. but in the end managed to get it.. :D had a bunch of nice and good team mates.. i know i can rely on them for it.. HAHAH :P

as time passes thruough the day.. everyone was feeling sadder each moment passed.. i guess.. for me.. i am still quite alright for the whole day.. finally the class was over.. and it was officially the time that we have come to an end as W45N.. initially i thought i will cry like hell.. but strangely i did not.. and we started cam whoring.. haha cuz my darling rozi need to meet her bf so she needa leave first.. she hugged me and started crying.. made me cry too.. so bad la u rozi.. but i promise i will never never forget my this best bestie darling.... :D

after ard 4 months together.. we really had a lot of fun, laughter, happy and sad times together.. i swear i will never forget W45N and anyone in the class.. thanks for everything for the past months.. hope everything will be smooth for everyone in time to come.. of course we can still meet up as we will still be in the same school ma.. dont be too sad yea? :D

meeting fuss at 7 so i left ard 5.. went totake bus and with yana.. went home changed bathed and had dinner before i leave for somerset..

fuss told me there was a ts feedback session.. so i tagged along.. haha.. we were late already and very paiseh.. but heng haven start.. who knows when we stepped into the place.. all of them are adults somemore.. omg.. shocked the hell out me of and fuss.. we felt so odd la.. luckily melvin was there too.. and he told us teo ser lat is the guest speaker.. i was like er... okay.. and our in charge asked us to sit in front cuz we were the only young ones.. LOL for the whole session only 10% concern us.. LOL mr teo asked why we wanna be volunteer for ts.. i wwas too shockedto say anything.. but inside me i have lots to say.. in the end.. melvin said it for us.. HAH but not really what i thought..... ER LOL it was really an eye opener to have a dialouge session with a member of paliment.. and alot of nsa and private volunteers and csc chairpersons.. heard alot of views/concerns.. and answer from mr teo.. i wan to go again.. hopefully will be only youngsters..... LOL

okay time for some reply of tags.. my tag board something wrong now..

huishan: thanks... you too... all the best~!! :D
Miss H: hahaa.. yeah.. i think so too.. :D
chin yong: haha.. it's okay.. take care too.. yeap W45N rocks~!!
rozi darling: yeap.. W45N really brought me alot of fun and happiness.. i will never forget u nor them.. it will always be a part in my memories... :D

Buying my FBT SHORTS tml.. YEAH~!!

LOOKING FORWARD TO THE 6 KM RUN!!! HEEHEE :D

i want to do a brain wash or suffer from memory loss to forget all the unhappines... can i?

yesterdayi cried, really cant hold back the tears when charles (prob solving faci)played guitar and we all sang together.. he is really a nice faci.. although at times a bit fierce.. but most of the time very nice friendly and chatty.. he told us alot of his experiences.. which is very interesting and valuable.. he gave me lots of advices too.. which was very much appreciated..

today is the last day of school already.. now doing vb.. dont really have the feeling to cry yet.. haha wonder what will happen in the afternoon.. LOL

i finally completed my first composition for the class.. although not very good but it is my contribution as a W45N member.. :D

下着细雨的下午
望着窗外的一切
有一大堆的不舍
突然涌上心头
忍不住的眼泪
不知觉的流下

相遇时最美
离别时最伤
这是短暂的伤痛
千万不要太难过
因为在未来的旅途
我们一定还会相见

这是我们的歌
属于你和我
歌词是诺言
旋律是依恋
需要我瞬间
我保证会在
灿烂的烟火
画下了句点

这段旅程的一点一滴
喜悦或是伤悲
很庆幸有你们的陪伴
美丽的回忆
带着我走向前

today i dont think i can go out to spend the last night with my classmates as team singapore has a feedback session at somerset.. shld be gg with fasehah.. if it ends early maybe i shall join them bah.. we are only splitting but there shld be chance for us to meet again in months/years to come.. :D sorry guys.. take care and all the best.. i will not forget any single one of your in W45N.. i will bring all the memories with me no matter where i go.. farewell....

wao.. it's been one week since i last updated.. been lazy to update.. lol

nth much happened.. went to watch fireworks for the last week.. nice man.. spain's was nicer than china.. the next one will be dec 31 countdown.. so long la.. HAHA

woo.. 2 more days to separation of W45N.. it's kinda fast to know that almost half a year passed.. it's relly like blink of an eye.. initially was just entering to rp.. then now is splitting of classs.. wao.. i will surely miss my classmates/darlings/faci.. i really tink that i am fortunate to get into this class with this bunch of nice lovable fun classmates and facis.. everyone is dear to me.. i really cant bear to leave them.. it will be 3 weeks before the start of a new sem/term/environment.. hope i can still meet nice lovable fun classmates and faci like this sem.. please bless me.. HAHA

nth much to update honestly speaking.. everyday like so slack for this week.. LOL

i will have 2 more weeks to decide if i should go back to band.. or should i do something different this time..? like sports? haha.. i really need to ponder over this..

dear miss H.. thx for reading my blog and gave me some advices.. HAHA really appreciate the concern.. love u lots~!! :D

sun went suntec to see welson's teenage icon singin competition... listened to all 16 finalists.. some of them really can sing.. wao.. haha.. and for welson.. i didnt know that he can actually sing that well.. HAHA~!! sorry ar.. :D the outcome is that he didnt win.. but i thik is not because he is not good.. just that his competitors are too strong.. hahaha..

while watching rite.. i was also influenced.. i want to take part in singing competiton also!!! i remembered my first singing competition in secondary school.. hahah.. i want to realise my dream!! hahaha.. even if i dont win, i can make alot of friends and gain experience.. HAHA :D

and to my dear close friend.. i dont think you will ever notice that i am angry with you bah.. i dont know if i should be angry with you.. but knowing that you lied.. i am really angry.. the very last thing i can get from my close friend i think is lying bah.. i dont know why you wan to do that.. but it really hurts.. come to think of it.. you also can lie to your friends.. and why not me? maybe tat's you.. i think i dont know you well and you now have your own clique and i dont think you still need me as a close friend bah.. i am just so not important bah.. whatever then.. since you dont care.. i should not as well.. all the best to you in the future to come.. my dear close friend..

i think the most hurtful thing that can happen in life is when the person you trusted the most, betrayed the trust among them..

totally disappointed....

10 August 2007

today initially i heard a very saddening news.. by chance.. i am angry and sad.. but what can i do..? haiz.. suan le.. i decided not to care so much towards our friendship le.. since your don really bother.. why shld i? just let your be passerbys in my life... if your really treat me as a good friend.. your will find me automatically bah.. i think cuz our friendship is only few months old.. tat's why it is so easily broken.. as my fren said.. i have to learn to move on.. especially for our school.. when we haven known one person well.. we have to part already.. so just let things move naturally bah..

went vivo with weiling.. watched rush hour 3... it total full house man... hahah.. the show is so damn funny.. but then the story line... er abit.. not very nice... chris tucker is a super funny bone.. starting of the movie already laugh and laugh till the end man.. hahaha.. at least while i am in the cinema.. i forgot all about the unhappy stuffs and had a great laugh...

went home to change shoe because my foot are blistering like hell.. haha i will not wear the shoe ever again.. lol.. dad treated us to river valley's man dong gei chicken rice.. not bad la.. hahah :D

then me and weiling walked to clark quay to drink.. haha.. but then it was early so we stayed to watch some uniquely singapore performances.. and cuz today was the opening.. there was fireworks.. wao.. cool la.. hahaha so heng.. LOL then back to the stage we watched some macho guys danced.. i know who they are from tv.. so damn HOT~!! then still got some flying stunts by other people.. graceful but exciting.. then walked ard here and there to think wher to drink.. wanted to go to the clinic.. but then is $18 per drink and like not much choice.. went quite alot of places.. but then decided to stop by at bungy again.. hahaha.. :D i had margarita and the waitress recommended weiling to drink purple storm.. haha nice.. ::D

the atmosphere damn good la.. HAHA.. got people singing.. and people dancing.. they so damn high... 3 ladies.. LOL then beside us got HOT ang moh..one of them was wearing singapore rugby shirt.. i suppose he is from there bah.. HAHA.. omg la.. so damn hot and macho.. LOL and their girl-friends..... PRETTY LIKE HELL... so chio hot and tall.. hahah how i wish i was that tall.. LOL

9 August 2007

went esplanade with sam pear mama and yana.. 3 of them went to buy drinks in the end cant get back.. then sam was feeling uneasy so she went to find them at city link.. left me alone there.. but heng managed to find sis.. cuz network was jammed.. stayed with her till end.. fireworks was really splendid.. beest ever i guess.. :D then went clark quay find them.. but less than 10 mins left..

met up with welson and sien.. haha.. had a nice chat with them.. damn funny one the both of them.. can make me laugh like hell.. after things happened.. i had not laughed like that le.. thanks for making me laugh and forget about my troubles for ytd.. welson left at ard 12 then we went supper with my sis and bf at river valley hk cafe.. i ate the dessert not nice one.. hahah.. then they sent us home... and sien and i continued our conversation till ard 2.. haha.. went home used comp till 3 and sleep.. ahaha.. damn tired.. lol..

maybe i am being sensitive.. but i strongly feel that i am the extra one among your.. things werent the same as before.. i do not know if things can be reversable.. but i hope so truely.. it hurts me so to see that we became like that.. :(

later going to see fireworks with classmates.. hope that things will get better bah.. and let me forget abt my troubles for a while..

alot of saddening stuffs happened..... another time where things turned out of hand again.. actually the problem is always there.. but i chose to keep quiet.. since no one will ever care..

i dont know why things will happen at this time when we are left with so little time? why cant they treasure the time we have left? and after so many months as classmates, why cant we stick to just the basic thing that WE ARE CLASSMATES? even if there are disputes in between, no need to really treat the people as invisible right? we are classmates afterall, and only 2 weeks are left.. cant we really have the happy time as before so that good memories can be left behind after we split?

i tried hard to hold back my tears all these while.. because i made a pact to myself that i will never cry in front of my classmates ever again.. but i think i am really going to let everything out real soon.. because i really cannot take it liao.. i hope i feel better..

honestly speaking your also didnt not really bother to know what kind of person i am from what i can feel..

i really feel hurt because i know that after so long, i still cant get into the clique.. even if i do, also half leg in half leg out.. i have been thinking all these while, what causes this to happen between me and your.. and i kind of know the reason why.. and that is that the time i joined the clique is just not right.. when i joined your, the bond between your is already that strong.. nothing can break that.. i can only blame that initially when we started class, we did not have much chance to work together and to bond in the process.. maybe from the start i should not have even tried to join your.. i dont ever think that they will notice it anyway.. and wont know that actually alot of things went through my mind but i cant say say or show it.. because i still want to hang out with your.. i still wanna try.. initially thought that things may change with time.. but i was wrong.. cuz afterall i am NOT in the clique.. i am just a passerby in their lives.. i dont think they will even really remember me as a friend after we split.. i tried all these while but there is no positive results.. i tried my best but there are just things where your did i really cant do it.. but that does not mean that i am anti social or what.. it is just my culture and principle ma.. but i guess your will not think that way.. somemore now things turned to this stage liao.. i really have not much to say.. i just hope that these 2 weeks can pass fast.. and start everything new in a new environment..

but really.. i treasure your as my friends.. the happy and sad times we had together will always be with me no matter where i go.. i don know if your will.. but it REALLY hurts me so to see that we become like tat at the last moments of us being W45N..

as for another issue.. i really didnt know that things will turn out this way.. we became so distant.. like strangers more than anything else.. i really hope that the thing didnt bother you much because i am just asking for assurance.. now that i know the situation, i really hope we can still be like before.. because i still treasure you as a very very good friend too.. i dont want to strain on our friendship due to this matter... i dont know if you will ever know this.. but if by chance you see this, i hope things will change for the better... :D

july 31 2007 tuesday

had computing lesson.. damn boring.. LOL.. quite alot of ppl chaoz half way.. i wanted to too.. but thinking left my team mates alone.. i cant bear to.. LOL.. and luckily i didnt leave because the faci was quite disappointed with the ppl who left.. LOL

then after school went for school opening jump party.. every faculty has it's own tshirt colour.. mine is red.. nice man.. haha., then our clique damn nice.. all faculties present.. then very colourful.. LOL .. initially was quite excited.. but then as time passes.. we all lost interest and went to camwhore.. the pics can be found on my friendster.. cuz i lazy to load here..

1 aug 2007 wed

no school today cuz it's our school holiday.. haha.. went sentosa with kevin pearlyn sam huishan and eunice.. initially when we reached vivo, it was raining.. our mood damn down la.. then luckily after awhile stopped.. quite fun la.. supposedly alot more ppl gg one.. in the end cant make it.. haiz.. played lame games and took lame pics.. LOL then rashid came at 3 plus i think.. came with vinco doughnuts.. hahah.. not bad la.. still nice.. haha.. then went vivo for dinner then slacked at the place.. then went home.. and i became darker.. LOL :D happy happy

2 aug 2007 thurs

had communications.. damn boring.. dislike the stupid faci alot..!! eeeyer..

3 aug 2007 fri

went to ang mo kio to eat dinner.. hahah.. boring la.. suppposedly to drink at clark quay.. but nvm.. next week.. LOL i am also saving up... :D

4 aug 2007

today is another day of walkaton.. but this time is with weiling.. HAHA~!! :D

went her house to do facial.. using nuskin products.. hey really nt bad man.. hahah.. tempting.. but very ex... damn.. LOL envy of those perfect skin.. eeyer LOL

then took bus to far east.. walk walk shop shop eat eat.. LOL then walked to wisma and taka.. went to kino look at magazines.. then went to raffles city to queue for doughnuts.... omg.. 1h40mins.. hahaha ard there la.. didnt really take note of the time.. AHAH.. damn nice man.. especially the double chocolate.. white chocolate topping and chocolate filling.. finally ate the authentic one already.. YEAH~! OMG I HEREBY RECOMMEND YOUR TO QUEUE TO BUY THE DOUBLE CHOCHOLATE.. OMG.. DAMN NICE.. :D first row 1st from the right..

then went boat quay to have our dinner.. then went clark quay slack slack walk walk.. hahah been walking the same route for 2 weeks.. lol.. i want to club soon~!! i wan to dance.... ahhh.. lol.. ytd was exceptionally packed at clark quay as compared to last week.. alot of ppl drinking and slacking.. eh i am envious... I ALSO WANT.. HAHA :D

5 Aug 2007

now slacking at home.. shld be gg out ltr.. i wan to watch baybeats... :D finding ppl now.. hahaha... and sis just told me cine got 10 bucks de shorts.. omg.. so tempting.. i wan go shopping!! LOL

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